Self-Fulfillment

Yesterday while at the gym, I was on the treadmill doing my end of workout cardio. It was leg day and I literally couldn’t run, my legs were wobbly and I felt I had no control over them. I needed to reach my burn zone for a few more minutes to reach my calorie goal so I pushed myself a bit harder by speed walking on incline. As I was getting my heart rate up, feeling dead tired, I started thinking of how far I’ve come. It wasn’t even about how far I’ve come in the gym, but life in general.

For those of you work out a lot you know what I mean when I tell you I blocked everything out and had this weird moment where I was in my own world with just my thoughts. I literally had a moment where I got this crazy feeling in the pit of my stomach and realized that everything has changed, because I made it change.

I’ll let you in on how I’ve changed. The me before: overweight, unhealthy, pessimistic, scared, submissive, and lonely. The me now: Healthy, optimistic, strong willed, opinionated, and happy. All those things I listed as me before all had excuses attached to them. What I mean is there was something, or someone in my life, that made me that way (which is mostly BS). The things I listed as how I feel now, that’s all me. I have so many AMAZING people in my life, most of which were in my life before, but now instead of saying I’m happy because of someone else; I say I’m happy with myself. Having all you amazing people there with me is just icing on the cake!

In that moment on the treadmill where I felt I couldn’t continue, who was the one pushing me to keep going? Me. On those last 2 squats where I didn’t think I’d make it back to starting position, who found some way to get strength to stand back up? Me. When my life was in shambles who made the hard decisions to start fresh? Me. Who moved out of her safe, little town she’d grown up in all her life to start a new life? Me. And who is happier with herself than ever before? ME!

Starting any new journey in life is scary. There are so many unknowns, what ifs, and worry. My best advice to anyone starting a new journey in life is to just do it. Whether you accomplish what you set out to do or you don’t, you’ll never be unhappy that you tried. Knowing you stepped out of your comfort zone and tried something new will always result in self-fulfillment. Always remember there is not one person in this world that can make you truly, utterly happy but yourself.