Screw you PCOS!

When I decided to start this blog, I essentially did it for me. I’ve always felt it therapeutic to write in my journal so I figured I would write here so people could see and learn from it. I never expected the comments that I’ve received. I’ve had complete strangers email me, write me on Facebook, comment on here and they have all been so nice and helpful. Thank you to all those who have went out of your way to comment, it really does mean the world to me.

I remember when I was first diagnosed with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. I was scared and felt really alone. I didn’t know one person who had the syndrome and felt like no one could relate to me. I couldn’t really talk to my friends or family, especially my sisters, because they all had babies or were currently pregnant. It didn’t seem fair at all. I will be completely honest in saying that I had a really hard time being around people for a long time.

Having PCOS has influenced my life in a lot of ways. In the beginning it had my confidence at an all-time low. I stayed in a toxic marriage for longer than I should have because I felt like no one else would want to deal with my “baggage”, I ate my feelings, and I didn’t want to be active in anything. I look back now and realize just how happy I was for a long time.

After leaving my ex, I started on my journey of becoming happy. The first thing that I wanted to do was lose weight. Initially, it was all about appearance. I wanted to look pretty again. Never in a million years did I think that losing weight would influence me the way it has. I realize now that in order to look good, you’ve got to feel good. Staying active, eating healthy, and taking care of myself has led to the greatest blessing in my life… my happiness.

Having PCOS has made me try harder to lose weight which in turn has made me into a fighter. I fight to be happy, I fight to be healthy, and I fight to accomplish every single goal I have. I no longer sit back waiting for things to happen. I make things happen. Some might say that having PCOS is all negative (and for the most part that is correct), however there is something to learn in every single negative step in our life. We can either pity ourselves or step up and make lemonade out of our lemons.

I for one will not let this syndrome hold me back. I’ll stand up and fight for what I want. I will be healthy, I will positively influence those around me, I will control my emotions, and I will have a baby. I will do everything that PCOS doesn’t want me to. PCOS has not only made me into a fighter, it has made me determined. Determined to show everyone that nothing can hold you back, not even the monster we call PCOS.