1 year ago I experienced the absolute worst day of my life. I honestly still wake up some days and wonder how I’m going to get through it. I still have flashbacks of the day that literally haunt me. The void in my life is unexplainable. There’s not a moment that I don’t think of how different my life would be today if our baby was with us. On September 15, 2016 we didn’t just lose our baby, we lost a piece of us.
This year has been tough but our love is resilient. I don’t know how to put in to words how much my husband means to me. He is my light on my darkest days. He forces me to heal by moving on, even on the days I fight him about it. He lets me grieve, but also makes sure that I have plenty to be happy about.
Our path to parenthood has changed a few times. We’ve gone from natural conception, IUI, IVF, IVF with Donor Eggs, and now adoption. I hope that our adopted child never feels second best. I hope they see a strong couple who have literally given everything of themselves to be their parents. I hope they see that our whole world has revolved around them long before we even knew who they were.
9/16/2017 07:22:01 am
Such a horrible, traumatic day! I love that you document it all though. I hope you feel love and support from everyone around you! Nothing worse than feeling invisible or judged when going through something so heartbreaking and life changing!
9/16/2017 09:25:03 am
That day is still so fresh in my mind. Not a day goes by that I don't think about the tragic loss that you and Nate experienced that day. I also think of how much love and hope and unity that your beautiful baby brought to our families. I know that your precious baby knew only the most amazing abundance of love imaginable... not an ounce of negativity just pure LOVE. Love you guys so much!!
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Hi my name is Whitney and I'm a mom to 2 adorable boys and the wife to a sports loving, handsome man. I'm outnumbered but wouldn't have it any other way. I'm navigating motherhood one fart joke at a time. Welcome to my crazy life!