It is so crazy to me the amount of evil people in this world. We have actively been trying to adopt for 2 months and we have had multiple people reach out to us trying to scam us. When you start the adoption process you are warned right away of these people, but until you actually deal with it, you don't really know what to expect. Every time I have a message pop up my excitement soars only to be disappointment when we confirm it's a scam. These scammers are not only looking for money, but a lot of them get thrills by playing with your emotions.
We have officially decided to sign with an agency to help protect us from these scams and find a legitimate expectant mom who will choose us to parent her child. We know that this option comes with a hefty price tag, but I was once told "You can either have a full wallet and empty house or a full house and an empty wallet". We know that having a full house is our priority, so we know our choice is the right one.
Adoption is hard, emotional, and downright frustrating. I'm not sure why God has made the path to parenthood so hard for us (and a lot of others out there) but it better be because there is something exceptional waiting for us. With every scam and and setback I keep telling myself that it's all in God's timing, even if I don't believe it half of the time. Please continue to pray for us and share our blog. We want to continue to reach as many people as possible in hopes to find our baby.
Can you say excited and nervous? We are both right now! We have secretly been working on our home study since February and haven’t wanted to say anything until it was official, but last week we got our approved home study confirmation. Now we want to shout it from the rooftops!
10 years of trying, 6 miscarriages, and too many tears later I’ve learned to trust in timing. I strongly believe that I had to go through what I’ve been through in order to make the decision to adopt. We have talked about it before, but there was always something holding me back. That is why we chose to go with the Donor egg IVF route. I had to try again. Not necessarily because I wanted to have a child biologically tied to us. I know now that it was a test to see if I was listening.
After we lost our last baby, I couldn’t even think of trying again whether that was through pregnancy or adoption. The thought of putting myself out there only to be hurt again scared me. I didn’t know if I could physically or mentally handle it. We took months off to regain our strength and to mentally refocus our lives. During the months of refocus, I finally realized that I’ve been through enough “Maybe’s” and I’m ready for my “someday”. I know without a doubt that I will “someday” be a mom.
Adoption is a world of unknowns and I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t overwhelmed and scared. I’m scared to put myself out there, get matched with a baby, and have the adoption fall through. I’m even more overwhelmed at the thought of having everything work out and the emotions I’ve going to feel when I finally get to look at our child in their eyes. The level of emotions I’m going through is what’s getting through this time of waiting. It’ll be worth it in the end.
A few months ago, I was feeling really scared and had a lot of anxiety. I was sitting at work, itching for lunch to start so I could get out of the office and cry. I decided to grab a sandwich and go to a quiet lake. While I was there I sat on a bench and just soaked in the quiet. I finished my lunch, but still had time until I needed to head back to work so I took a walk around the lake. I remember thinking and hoping that I was strong enough to go through our adoption plan. I was feeling so full of doubt until I felt a complete calmness take over me and a subconscious whisper tell me “you are” Those 2 words have directed my life in more ways than one since that day. I no longer doubt that I am going in the right direction. I know that I am strong enough and I know that I am married to the strongest person I know. We are more than ready to go through with this plan and we are more than ready to welcome a child into our home.
Right now we are asking for shares on all social media accounts. The more we get our names out there, the better our chances of being matched with our future child will be. We've already been overwhelmed with the amount of support given. I love the people in our life and I have faith that this is going to work. Check back here frequently for updates.... I hope you are ready to experience this craziness with us. It's going to be fun!
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