2 Years Ago

2 years ago we were anxiously waiting on the arrival of our baby boy. We knew nothing at that point. We didn’t know what to expect during delivery, after delivery, or how the whole event would turn out. We had faith we were where we were meant to be and I had a weird sense of calmness that hovered over me the whole 36 hours of labor. The moment I seen our son, I knew he was mine. He had my heart from the very moment I seen him. I also knew that our birth mom was meant to be ours as well. She chose us for a reason and I know it was a bigger reason than any of us knew at that point. 

I’m so thankful for the gift of adoption and the complex emotions it has for all those involved in it. I believe we all have learned so much through the emotions we are forced to face. I’m so thankful I became a mom through adoption first. It has truly taught me more about myself than any other experience I’ve ever been through. It’s taught me resiliency and how to cope with unwanted or hurtful comments. It’s taught me possessiveness, over myself but most importantly those I love. It’s taught me the true meaning of love and that it’s not blood that makes you family. Adoption has made me a better person, which in turn has made me a better mom. I think I needed to start my family this way in order to fully embrace motherhood. Rhett will forever be my game changer, the one who taught me how to "mom". 

I am so excited to welcome another baby into our family, this time through pregnancy. The Christmas season was changed for me 2 years ago when we welcomed Rhett into our family on the 2nd and now we are anxiously waiting for baby brothers arrival right around the same time. It’s such a special time for our family and I am so thankful to be the one who gets to experience it. Both of my boys were born in the most amazing circumstances. I hope they grow up knowing and loving their birth stories as much as I have loved witnessing the miracles of them both.